I will admit I haven't summed up our adoption story and left many of you hanging in anticipation. My apologies. You see, it's not the ending everyone expected so the words are hard. Not hard for me, but hard for others who may not understand all the circumstances and choices our family has made.
Long story short: We left our agency several months ago and decided to follow God in His plan for us, Barkers, Party of 3. Not 4, not 5, but 3. Me, Coach and Little Man. And we are perfect.
We haven't felt this peaceful in years - about 3 in fact. Looking back, this is what God was directing us to all along, but we were too headstrong to see it.
While your heart may ache for us and wonder why we'd have an only child, our hearts rejoice. Little Man is ours, a gift from Heaven itself. I was recently reading Sparkly Green Earrings (a must read for moms written by fellow blogger, BigMama) and stumbled upon and entire chapter devoted to why she only had one child. I laughed, I cried - this woman totally gets it. In her life, it was God's plan as well. She writes,"Our friends are coordinating schedules and sports and homework for more than one little person, but my heart is full with my one child." She has quite a sense of humor.."I have come to terms with the fact that, while I have other strengths, being a mom to a bunch of kids may not be my gift considering I don't really handle chaos or messes well..."
Can I get an Amen Sister!
Yes, I know all about only child syndrome and the profiling that Little Man could endure. No, he's not spoiled. We say no...he doesn't always get his way..and he's learned that fits get you no where. Yes, we socialize him quite a bit. He has tons of cousins and friends and I have no doubts he'll experience the all important fight of who's "over the line" in the backseat.
He heads off to Kindergarten this year and we couldn't be happier.
Our lives are full, our cup overflows, our family is perfect.
Just as God intended.